Anywhere but here

You know that movie starting Natalie Portman and Susan Sarandom, about that teen girl who would do anything to just run away from her mom but for some mysterious reason she can’t, this is how I felt when my parents decided that we are going to spend two week at dad’s village, I wanted to just say no I won’t go, but I couldn’t it’s not like I hate going to that place it’s just that they have been controlling my every move since summer started, my plans what I think about isn’t that important they have bigger plans and they assume I should accept them and follow their steps, I kept calm all those days and I added another two weeks of shutting my mouth, I didn’t want to ruin their mood yet since soon things will change and I need energy for that.

So this is how I ended up coming where, against my will, and since I’m here better enjoy it. my parents village is located in the south of morocco between Tiznit and Sidi Ifni, we have our own house here, it has electricity but water we need to bring it from the outside, no television and I’m ok with it I’m not a fan of it anyway, instead we have a radio that only catches Spanish stations and the local amazigh station, good for me more time to read and write, outside we have a garden that looks nothing like a garden, dad takes care of it once a year so what should I expect. during the night it gets really dark it took me awhile to get used to it and I grow to really love it, if you look at the sky you would be amazed by how bright the stars shine. I have cousins who live nearby but we don’t have much in common to talk about, I bet they find me the most boring girl ever and it’s ok since the feelings are mutual, I spend my day between reading, helping in the house, going to the beach if dad feels like taking us there and taking photos.

This is where I spend most of my day

This Argan tree has a million year I guess even grandpa played under it.

It’s really beautiful in here, so calm and peaceful, but when you are young with all those ideas and plans in your mind and no one seems to care about them and keep blocking you, life can get a bit hard. Dad, mom  I love you so much and I’m so grateful about all the things you did and keep doing for me but it’s only those two weeks and I’m going to take control of my life and end this play so please enjoy your time like I do.

Azul Merieme Ayad

Hi friends;

Today I’m going to talk about me, it’s my blog so obviously I would be talking mostly about me, I suck at making introductions but anyway, did you ever wonder what my blog’s name means, by you I mean people who read my blog I know they aren’t many but did that ever came to your mind! Ok even if it didn’t today I’m going to reveal the mystery behind my blog’s name, ready?

It’s not really a mystery if you know a bit of tachlhit, which is an amazigh dialect, you would easily figure it out, AZUL means hi or bonjour, Merieme is my name and Ayad means this is, so basically my blog's name is "hi, this is merieme" genius right? I know it took me forever to chose it, well my brain couldn’t find any better plus it’s in tachlhit a dialect that I love and I know because I’m amazigh, though I grow up a in city where we speak mostly in darija (an Arabic dialect) my parents used to speak tachlhit at home and I’m thankful that they did so, if not I wouldn’t have learned it.
Now that I live in Agadir, a city where a lot of people speak in tachlihit and most of my friends do, knowing how to speak it made it easier for me to connect with people here, and I grow to really enjoy speaking in it. this language is a part of a such beautiful culture which the amazigh culture, I can’t say I speak fluently tachlih I’m way far from that level but I try my best to improve it.


There is another thing that I like about being Amazigh, which is the Amazigh jewelries, Amazigh jewelries are mostly in silver and they are so beautiful, we wear them mostly during weddings, but if it was possible I would wear them everyday and everywhere, I can’t tell you how much I love them. for me they are better than jewelries in gold or even with diamonds, and I don't exaggerate I don’t know why but it’s like they tell a story and they add another charm to the person wearing them.
In the first photo I’m wearing them for the first time in a wedding, and in the second one I was just at home trying them out. they are too different sets and each one represent a region in SOUSS.

I wrote this post because I wanted to share photos of me looking all glamorous with the amazigh jewelries, but also because if there is something I learnt about me loving my culture and getting to know it every day more with its  beautiful and not so beautiful sides, is that now I respect other cultures more and I try not to hurt even with a word others because they belong to a different culture than me, plus I know what is like to get hate just because you are different. If only we could respect each other and put the fact that we are humans above any other title living on this earth would be way easier.

Peace.