Recent reads

It has been a while since I last wrote on my blog like two months, and that’s mainly because of my laziness, plus I felt like my head was empty two stressed to work or think let along write, all I was doing was read, at least I have been doing that.

And that’s what I'm going to talk about today. I have been reading books from different genres a classic, a young adult and some children books.

Let’s start with the classic one, it's a really famous French classic, Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert, the book is about this women who lives her life thinking that she doesn’t have what it takes to be happy, so she tries to chase those things she’s too blind to know or see that she already have everything. Emma the name of this woman in her chase would do things that we consider or her society considers immoral and even stupid, she knows that but she doesn’t care as long as she’ll get her happy ending the ending that she’ll never get. While reading other people’s reviews about the book I remarked that some people hated Emma because of her disrespect to her husband and child others pitied her for her ignorance, for me I couldn’t stop thinking how much Emma was reliable character how human nature is alike I could see myself doing what Emma was doing, when we are bored, desperate and unhappy we do stupid things that we know are stupid but we think they are better than staying still, doing nothing and just feeling like dying a little bit everyday.

The second book I read was a young adult called the DUFF written by Kody Keplinger, I picked this book because of a positive review of a moroccan youtuber, the story is ok but just not that good for me, too much talking about looks and sex that's what I remember from it, I don't know why but young adult books aren't for me, I'm afraid I'm being unfair to this genre but that's just what I feel, final verdict the DUFF was a waste of time.

All the other books I read are children books, I have been planning to read those forever, and finally I did, like I expected they weren't that easy to read, the vocabulary was all new to me animal names flower names, even with this difficulty I really enjoyed those books, I read Bridge to Terabithia by Katherine Paterson a dreamy book about jess and leslie and their magical world I liked this book so much especially that even though it's a children book the author talked about deep issues such as death, religion, love, children abuse this book is just amazing, I also read secret garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett the book tells the story of Mary a spoiled sick child, who will move to her uncle estate where her life will change not only hers but the life of many people around her, this book is just beautiful, I did retell this story to my little cousin and he was amazed with it, he told me that he wish he could also have a secret garden, I replied me too after this book who doesn't dream of one, the last book is Alice's Adventures in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll, and to be honest I didn't understand much of it or the book had not much in it, I don't know all I could remember from it was that Alice kept changing sizes kept asking herself who she was, maybe I'm going to reread this book someday I should this book is famous it should be for a reason am I wrong?

That's it for this post, I'm going to keep reading and try to write more I know my writing style sucks, I should try more. to the few people who read the rumbling I write thank you.

My progress in spanish + my current favorite spanish songs #2

"Hola, me llamó merieme, tengo veintiún anos, vivo en agadir, es un cuidad en el sur de marruecos, agadir es muy agredable sobre todo en verano, trabajo como camarera, es mi trabajo este verano.  

Aprendo espanol por dos anos, pero mi nivel es no bueno porque me estudiando solo en mi casa utilizando internet y a veces me aburro.

Pero este verano intento trabajar mas y estudiar mas, y mi gol es leer un libro entero en espanol espero que si."

So this is all I could say in spanish when I recorded myself, and I know it's not a good thing since it doesn't reflect my work, and it's a little frustrating, but I'm not giving up I'll learn this language one day.

One of the tips I found on the internet about learning any language is to diversify my learning resources, so I have been searching for and trying different resources; I have found this app called Duolingo, it's a great app to learn vocabulary and I love using it, and I started listening to a new podcast Showtime spanish and I like it so far, I also began to watch this telenovela La que no podia amar the site where I'm watching it provides english and spanish subtitles witch is so helpful. I'm the type to get easily bored so using different resources helps me a lot.

Now to music;

this month I have been listening a lot to some old but yet so good songs by enrique iglesias.

Ayer:

Hey dime a donde vas                                             Hey tell me where you're going

y si sabes tu distino                                                  and if you know your destity

Ayer cabais en mi corazon                                      yesturday you fit in my heart

y te escondiste en un rincon                                   and you hid in a corner

del otro lado                                                               of the other side

yo se que la vida nos dejo                                        I know that life let us 

saber que nuestro amor                                           know that our love

no esta acabado                                                         is not over

                                          

Enrique Iglesias feat. Juan Luis Guerra-Cuando Me Enamoro:

Cuando me enamoro                                               When I fall in love

a veces desespero                                                     Sometimes I get desperate

Cuando me enamoro                                               When I fall in love

Cuando menos melo espero                                   When I least expect it

me enamoro                                                               I fall in love

Se detiene el tiempo                                                 Time stops

me viene el alma al cuerpo                                     soul comes to my body

sonrio, cuando me enamoro                                  I smile, when I fall in love

Since I'm a big fan of Ricky Martin, I'm always listening to one of his songs, this month I have been listening to:
Tu Recuerdo by Ricky Martin & Mari Chambao:

Tu recuerdo sigue aqui                                          Your memory stays here
Como un aguacero                                                  Like a cloudburst
Rompe fuerte sobre mi                                          It hits me hard
Pero a fuego lento                                                   But slowly
Quema y moja por igual                                        It burns and soaks me all the same
Y ya no se lo que pensar                                        And I don't know what to think
Si tu recuerdo me hace bien                                 If your memory is good  
o me hace mal                                                         or bad for me

Ricky Martin - La Mordidita:

I enjoy listing to this song so much, so richy martin.

I saved the best for the last,

Solita by Prince Royce:

Tomando el autobús                                               While I was taking the bus

En un Diciembre a mi vida llegas tú                    In a December you came into my life

La niña que tantas veces yo había                        The girl of whom I’ve dreamed so many

soñado                                                                          times

Y como un loco, cada noche deseado                   And like a crazy, I desired her every night  

  

I'd like to mention that for the lyrics and the translation, I use this website that I like so much http://lyricstranslate.com/

My trip back to Casablanca

                          

It was 22:30 Sunday night when dad drove me to the bus station, he didn't stop warning me how dangers casa was early in the morning, how I should take the taxi once there waiting for the bus alone isn't safe, he kept insisting on this he knows I hate taxis, I kept answering yes dad ok dad, it was not my first time traveling to casa, but he (dad) and mom still act like I was a child.

After buying the ticket which is not that easy in moroccan bus stations, and made sure I was comfortable in my seat, dad went back home finally. I'm 21 he shouldn't be so worried about me but he just does I should prove him I can handle alone those situations, I think.

It was a year since I last visited casablanca, I missed my friends so much, but it wasn't the raison I was going to it, I needed some paper from my old university. the trip lasted 6 hours, I couldn't sleep I kept listening to an audio-book I downloaded and the time flew by.

It was 6 am when I arrived to casa, I descended at the station that dad calls a jungle and it is with all those homeless people. I didn't care much about the station what made me anxious was the empty streets outside, so I headed in quick steps to the bus station, sorry dad but I hate taxis, I hate that stupid conversation with the driver, the station wasn't empty which made me relaxed, soon the bus came in half an hour I was at my friend's place, her mom was so nice, made the bad for me to rest and give me pg's to feel comfortable I slept for an hour before going to the uni.

My experience this time at that school wasn't as bad as last time, the administration still sucks, but they gave me my paper without  begging, yelling or cursing, they just made me wait for 3 hour.

On the road, back to my friend's house I felt at ease, all my anxiety sources were gone, I sat looking outside the bus window, nothing really changed beside the new garbage boxes, the air wasn't as stinky as the last time I was there, I just realized how much I missed my every day trip to school and casa in general, the city where I was born and grow up, it's the most dirty and definitely not so safe city but I missed it,its nice helpful people not all of them but living in agadir made me appreciate that quality in casawi people, how easy it was to start a conversation with a total stranger in the bus. 

I eat lunch, rested for a few hours, I couldn't help not visiting my uncle and its little family I missed them so much, he lives now at my old house, once there I got a little bit nostalgic but I didn't burst into real tears until I sow a neighborhood friend it was weird but it felt good, I said goodbye to my house, and at 7 pm I was on the road again back to agadir.

All I was doing on the trip was thinking, thinking how much I grow up, how it was hard for me to get used to living in a new city, It costed me a year without studying and who knows about next year, but in the end, now that I said my farewells to my old city, I felt fresh, I'm starting a new page in my life with no regrets or prejudice. this is life, we are in a trip  we land at different places, meet new people say goodbye to others, have bad memories good ones, the most important thing is to always move forward and don't get stuck in the past

I didn't know my trip would turn me this wise, I arrived at 4 am, dad was waiting for me!!.

Recent reads

Last few weeks were a total mess, the only beam of light in them would be the books I read, I don't know how people get through tough time, but for me I just escape, escape to my books land, I know running from my problems won't solve them, but I at least get some time to breath and just stop thinking even for a while. I'm glad I have a whole world to hide at when I need to.

Ok, I think I got lost in my own thoughts, return to the books, So last week I finished reading five books,

The first was a trilogy, called the millennium trilogy, a really famous crime fiction series written by STIEG LARSSON, it consist of three books:

_The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo.

_The Girl Who Played with Fire.

_The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest.

I started reading this series after watching on TV a movie adaptation of the first volume, I didn't quite understand the story since I didn't start watching the movie from the beginning but I was amazed by the gloominess and the darkness of it, I was happy when I found out that it was an adaptation of a series.

Reading this series wasn't disappointing at all, the first volume was about Mikael Blomkvist, a journalist trying to solve the mystery of this missing girl, Lisbeth Salander, a hacker with a unique memory and poor social skills plays a huge role in solving this mystery, the second and the third books are mainly about Lisbeth which is amazing because after finishing the first book you grow curious to know more about this girl, the story behind her. 

the trilogy is a crime fiction, so there is always a crime to solve, what I really liked was the fact that the police didn't play much a role in the solving, that's why I was pleased with the first and the second books and got a little bit annoyed in the third one when the police got involved more, I don't know if it's just me but the police formalities can turn anything to boring, but it's ok the story was so fascinating I couldn't stop reading. the other thing I liked about the series was the amount of informations I learned from it about Sweden, economics, sex trade the hackers world and other things, which is not surprising when you read about the author's background. the book is also written by someone who is clearly a feminist the whole trilogy goes around violence against women, this series just open my eyes on a lot of things reading it was just great. 

there was just one thing that made reading a little hard for me, there was so much names to remember since the names are in Swedish they were weird for me some I couldn't even pronounce but after a while I got used to them.

The second book was the classical DRACULA by Bram Stoker, this book turned nothing like I thought it would, the classic story has nothing to do with those musicals on YouTube (that's what happens when you watch just clips of your favorite idol in a musical and draw conclusions by yourself ), what I concluded from my reading is that the story isn't about dracula the vampire, he's just another beast, well a new kind of beasts, but in the end he's just the evil in the story that we need to fight. the story is more about the friendship between those five men (Jonathan, john, art, morris and Dr Van Helsing), and their determination to protected their beloved girls Lucy and Mina from the evil. the concept of the book isn't bad but I found the book so long and slow going, the only thing that prevented me from getting bored was the style of narration which I found interesting, in the book every main character wrote a dairy , well three of them, so the reader is reading part of those diaries. I wished that Dracula also wrote one that way we would know what's in his mind, but Dr Van Helsing described him as having a child's brain, so how could he have one (we don't know if that's true that vampire didn't get a chance to prove anything). when I was thinking about dracula and from where did truly come my misconception about it, I found that it was mainly because the blood exchange between Dracula and his victim in movies, it's pictured as a passionate sexy scene, while in the book it was not, it was a violent scene, I thing that was it. over all the book isn't bad, happy that now I know the classic story, maybe this way I would look cool when someone starts talking about vampires, now I look like someone who reads books to impress people, whatever, to the third book.

So the third book I read was الاسود يليق بك by أحلام مستغانمي, the book tells the story of this millionaire who falls in love with this algerian singer, their push and pull game that they call love. he the male character masters this game or thinks he does. I had confused feeling while reading this book, it took me FIVE months to finish it, firstly because of أحلام مستغانمي style of writing, some poeple LOVE her style, but for me I coudn't enjoy her style, I needed so much effort to stay concentrated, when I was reading I needed to slow my reading so much sometimes even ask the help of my sister, the main cause of this is my poor arabic, which is a shame. secondly and what annoyed me the most was that stupid push and pull between the main characters, GOD I hated it, plus I never even for a second thought that what those two were feeling was love. I didn't start liking the book until the few last chapters, what happened in the end just made total sense. and I felt really proud of myself because I didn't give up and finished reading, to make justice to the book the story wasn't all about that game between the main characters, I actually learned a lot from this book the author talked about algeria and it's current issues and history, which made me think how much alike Morocco and Algeria are. After finishing the book I kind of understand why some people enjoy so much the writing style of أحلام مستغانمي,  she plays with words, uses a lot of metaphors, for someone who didn't read in arabic in a long time, it's normal that he's going to get annoyed with her style. I made a promise to myself to buy and read her next book, even if I finish it in a year this time, it doesn't matter, she's a unique author plus I need to read more in arabic I feel guilty that I let my level get so low.

I finally wrote something on my blog YEAH, sometime only by reading my old posts that I feel I was living at that period and that I'm still alive, maybe that's why people document their lives, maybe!!!