Monday, May 18, 2015

Recent reads

Last few weeks were a total mess, the only beam of light in them would be the books I read, I don't know how people get through tough time, but for me I just escape, escape to my books land, I know running from my problems won't solve them, but I at least get some time to breath and just stop thinking even for a while. I'm glad I have a whole world to hide at when I need to.
Ok, I think I got lost in my own thoughts, return to the books, So last week I finished reading five books,

The first was a trilogy, called the millennium trilogy, a really famous crime fiction series written by STIEG LARSSON, it consist of three books:
_The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo.
_The Girl Who Played with Fire.
_The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest.
I started reading this series after watching on TV a movie adaptation of the first volume, I didn't quite understand the story since I didn't start watching the movie from the beginning but I was amazed by the gloominess and the darkness of it, I was happy when I found out that it was an adaptation of a series.
Reading this series wasn't disappointing at all, the first volume was about Mikael Blomkvist, a journalist trying to solve the mystery of this missing girl, Lisbeth Salander, a hacker with a unique memory and poor social skills plays a huge role in solving this mystery, the second and the third books are mainly about Lisbeth which is amazing because after finishing the first book you grow curious to know more about this girl, the story behind her. 
the trilogy is a crime fiction, so there is always a crime to solve, what I really liked was the fact that the police didn't play much a role in the solving, that's why I was pleased with the first and the second books and got a little bit annoyed in the third one when the police got involved more, I don't know if it's just me but the police formalities can turn anything to boring, but it's ok the story was so fascinating I couldn't stop reading. the other thing I liked about the series was the amount of informations I learned from it about Sweden, economics, sex trade the hackers world and other things, which is not surprising when you read about the author's background. the book is also written by someone who is clearly a feminist the whole trilogy goes around violence against women, this series just open my eyes on a lot of things reading it was just great. 
there was just one thing that made reading a little hard for me, there was so much names to remember since the names are in Swedish they were weird for me some I couldn't even pronounce but after a while I got used to them.

The second book was the classical DRACULA by Bram Stoker, this book turned nothing like I thought it would, the classic story has nothing to do with those musicals on YouTube (that's what happens when you watch just clips of your favorite idol in a musical and draw conclusions by yourself ), what I concluded from my reading is that the story isn't about dracula the vampire, he's just another beast, well a new kind of beasts, but in the end he's just the evil in the story that we need to fight. the story is more about the friendship between those five men (Jonathan, john, art, morris and Dr Van Helsing), and their determination to protected their beloved girls Lucy and Mina from the evil. the concept of the book isn't bad but I found the book so long and slow going, the only thing that prevented me from getting bored was the style of narration which I found interesting, in the book every main character wrote a dairy , well three of them, so the reader is reading part of those diaries. I wished that Dracula also wrote one that way we would know what's in his mind, but Dr Van Helsing described him as having a child's brain, so how could he have one (we don't know if that's true that vampire didn't get a chance to prove anything). when I was thinking about dracula and from where did truly come my misconception about it, I found that it was mainly because the blood exchange between Dracula and his victim in movies, it's pictured as a passionate sexy scene, while in the book it was not, it was a violent scene, I thing that was it. over all the book isn't bad, happy that now I know the classic story, maybe this way I would look cool when someone starts talking about vampires, now I look like someone who reads books to impress people, whatever, to the third book.

So the third book I read was الاسود يليق بك by أحلام مستغانمي, the book tells the story of this millionaire who falls in love with this algerian singer, their push and pull game that they call love. he the male character masters this game or thinks he does. I had confused feeling while reading this book, it took me FIVE months to finish it, firstly because of أحلام مستغانمي style of writing, some poeple LOVE her style, but for me I coudn't enjoy her style, I needed so much effort to stay concentrated, when I was reading I needed to slow my reading so much sometimes even ask the help of my sister, the main cause of this is my poor arabic, which is a shame. secondly and what annoyed me the most was that stupid push and pull between the main characters, GOD I hated it, plus I never even for a second thought that what those two were feeling was love. I didn't start liking the book until the few last chapters, what happened in the end just made total sense. and I felt really proud of myself because I didn't give up and finished reading, to make justice to the book the story wasn't all about that game between the main characters, I actually learned a lot from this book the author talked about algeria and it's current issues and history, which made me think how much alike Morocco and Algeria are. After finishing the book I kind of understand why some people enjoy so much the writing style of أحلام مستغانمي,  she plays with words, uses a lot of metaphors, for someone who didn't read in arabic in a long time, it's normal that he's going to get annoyed with her style. I made a promise to myself to buy and read her next book, even if I finish it in a year this time, it doesn't matter, she's a unique author plus I need to read more in arabic I feel guilty that I let my level get so low.

I finally wrote something on my blog YEAH, sometime only by reading my old posts that I feel I was living at that period and that I'm still alive, maybe that's why people document their lives, maybe!!! 

  





Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Nino



It was one of those days when I was still searching for something to do with my life, I copied my resumé, worn my favorite sweater and headed to the bus station.
I had no precise idea in mind where I was going, I just got so bored and told myself why not go downtown put my resumé at some shops, I knew it wasn't the time yet to search for this kind of job, there was not that much tourists, so shops don't hire extra workers at this time of the year, but maybe I'll get lucky, maybe some coffee shop needs a waitress or I don't know any other thing.
That day was sunny, it felt like a day of summer, but in fact it was winter, this city doesn't care about seasons, I spent a half a year in AGADIR, and one thing I learned about it, you can never predict the weather, but it was a good sign, at least the weather was on my side.

Once there and after putting down my resumé at some shops, I sensed that it wasn't at all the right time to search for this kind of job, most restaurants, coffee shops, stores where empty, so I decided to return to my house.
On my road back to the bus station, this man who I know was a tourist approached me, I know he would be asking about some place that for sure I don't know about. and I was right, he asked me if I knew a good restaurant that cooks moroccan dishes, I replied that I don't know, I don't eat out a lot, which was true. he pretended to be shocked and said: really you don't know, at your age you would normally go out a lot with your friends.
I wasn't in a good mood to talk, but that man looked like he was lonely and just wanted to have a conversation with someone, he looked over forty so I said why not talk with him, maybe this would cheer me up, I explained to him that even if I go out with my friends we wouldn't be eating moroccan cuisine, we eat it all the time at our houses.
he smiled and introduced himself to me, his name was Nino which I found really funny, he is a retired teacher, I also introduced myself and asked him about his nationality, because I couldn't figure that out he spoke in perfect french, yet he had an accent, he told me he was Italian. then he shocked me with that question:
_Why are you looking sad?

I wasn't expecting this question, I was feeling depressed and lost, but I was trying my best to look confident, I guess I'm not a that good at acting, I couldn't shut my mouth, I should have but I didn't, I told him every thing about me looking for a job, and me not finishing school, he listened to me without interrupting, he tried to understand me then when I finished talking said:
_You know, I was a teacher and I have heard this story so many times, you are still young you can work but consider that maybe one day you're going to regret not finishing school.
I explained to him that I couldn't stand how the college I was studying at worked, it's total chaos.
_Is this college that you hate the only option you have to finish studying? do you have  any other option?
_Yes I have, but next year.
_Then go for them, try them, take this advice from an old man, a job as waitress isn't a job you wanna be doing for the rest of your life, trust me.
_Ok, I'm going to keep this in mind.
_Good, don't think just about today keep in mind tomorrow, and don't be sad about your situation, every person in their life goes through this phase; when they don't know what to do, when they're lost but not all have the chance you have to finish or even change what they're studying, study your possibilities and choose right, let's have an ice cream together, it'll cheer you up.
_No, it's ok, I'm already better now that I talked with you.
_Don't say no, I'm inviting you.
_No, really I can't, I'm so tired I just need to go to my house,(deep inside me I did really needed that ice cream, but I couldn't accept his invitation it just didn't seem right, he was a total stranger.)
_Ok just give me your number so we can stay in contact, and have a cup of coffee some other day.
_I'm so sorry I can't (there was no harm from me giving him my number, but again it didn't seem right, I would look like those girls who go around looking for old tourist, to buy them thing so no I refused to give him my number.)
_It's ok, I'm not going to force you to give me you number, I wish you good luck, and to do the right choices in your life.

I wished him good luck too, and thanked him for his advice, then we parted. I headed off to the bus station and him I don't know to where, I didn't look back.

That was how I met Nino, the italian tourist who I don't think I'm going to see again, but in a way or another helped me a lot, just by listening to me, I just needed that at the time. Now that I think about it I wish we talked for longer, his words were wise, he talked like a dad who's concerned about his daughter, but I took the right decision to not stay in contact with him, I think!!!



Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Spanish songs #1

In today's post I'll be talking about my favorite spanish songs those days.
let's start with one of my favorite artists ever Ricky Martin, who released a new album in February "A Quien Quiera Escuchar", and what a wonderful album, all the songs are beautiful but my favorite ones are:
"Adiós" and "Disparo al Corazón" for me now, they are the best : 


The chorus:
Adiós                                                              Goodbye
Te tengo que decir adiós                                I have to tell you goodbye
Me estoy volviendo loco                                  I'm going crazy
Loco, loco, loco, loco por tu amor                   crazy, crazy, crazy, for your love 

my favorite part :

Me vuelve loco                                                       I'm going crazy 
De la forma en que besas poco a poco                    with the way you kiss little by little
Perdona si al marcharme me equivoco                     forgive me if I'm wrong to go away
Pero esta noche te tengo que dejar                          but I have to leave you tonight 

Ok, this song is addictive, that french part is just hilarious along with that ¡ay, Dios mío, qué novela! in the end.
"disparo al corazónis just another story, this song is different from "Adiós" with deep lyrics:

the chorus:
Conocerte fue un disparo al corazón                 Meeting you was a gunshot at the heart
Me atacaste con un beso a sangre fría              You attacked me with a kiss in cold blood
Y yo sabía                                                        And you knew it
Que era tan letal la herida que causó                How lethal, lethal, the injury you’ve caused 
Que este loco aventurero se moría                   This crazy venturous died
Y ese día comenzó                                          And this day started
Tanto amor con un disparo al corazón               With your love with a gunshot at the heart

and the music video of this song is just as beautiful as its lyrics.

the third and fourth songs i want to share aren't that new, but I just discovered them and I'm glad I did, they are so good.

"Darte un Beso" by Prince Royce:


What I love the most about this song is that her lyrics are so sweet and full of vocabulary I didn't know before, especially in the first verse:
Amarte como te amo es complicado                      To love you like I love you is complicated
Pensar como te pienso es un pecado                    To think the way I think about you is a sin
Mirar como te miro está prohibido                          To look the way I look at you is prohibited 
Tocarte como quiero es un delito                           To touch you like I want is a crime
I'm glad I know now Prince Royce he has such a beautiful voice.

The other song is "Propuesta indecente" by Romeo Santos:


The song is originally by Romeo Santos but I like way better this cover.
the chorus:
Si te invito una copa si te
y me acerco a tu boca si te robo
un besito a ver no te enojas conmigo
que dirias si esta noche te seduzco en mi coche
que se empañen los vidrios y la regla es que gozes
si te falto el respeto yo no culpo al alcohol si levanto
tu falda me darias el derecho
de medir tu sensates poner en juego tu cuerpo
si te parece prudente esta propuesta indecente
The last song I want to share is:"Enamorate" by Dvicio

I knew about this song through tumbler, this song was last week all over tumbler, mainly because of the handsome members of the band who sing it, plus the funny way they filmed the music video. obviously I didn't like the song only because of the good looking band but also because of the beautiful voice of the singer and the sweet lyrics: 
Enamorate, te, te, otra vez,                                   
quiero recordarte que bonito es verlo,
todo en una nube del color del cielo...
Enamorate, te, te, otra vez,
bajar a la tierra y tocar con los dedos,
el agua del mar, tu cuerpo con mi cuerpo...

So those where my favorite spanish songs those days, and I'd like to mention that for the lyrics and the translation, I use this website that I like so much http://lyricstranslate.com/they are always the fastest to translate songs which is awesome. 



Sunday, March 22, 2015

It's all about the background

Finally I found something to do with my life, at least for the next four months, an internship at an accounting firm.
Finding an internship wasn't easy at all. at first I thought all I need is good resumé but no, it's not enough in morocco, you need more, you need to know someone who happens to know someone who knows the manager of the firm you attend to work at, from my brief experience that's the best way, the way that guarantees finding an internship or a job.
I tried other ways for a month, handed down my resumé in a lot of firms, I searched on internet on those useless websites (really useless I spend a lot of my time responding to offers but no one called it's like they fool people), but nothing worked is it bad luck or just those ways don't work anymore, I don't know.
I would have been really more proud if I had found this internship by myself, but it's ok I tried and it's not like I don't deserve this chance, it's weird how just yesterday I read in a book "the girl who played with fire" a quote that I thought was sad "it's all about the background" but it's true, life is much easier if you have a good background, a family with acquaintances that can help, some people have more chances just because they have the right background the sad unfair fact of the day.