Tuesday, August 30, 2016

At my grandma's

After a week at my dad’s village it was my mom’s turn to visit her village, my grandma still lives there, one of the few people who still lives there, it’s much more deserted than my dad’s village once their you would think you traveled back in time.

My aunties agreed to meet at my grandma’s for two days, and if you ask me this is the worst thing that happened to me so far in this trip, when those four women gather up nothing good will came up from it, but I had a plan just stay away from them, the less I hear about what they are talking about the better it is. 

My grandma’s house is really old, she has electricity but again no water which can make living so uncomfortable yet she insist on living there it’s her home she says, she can’t support living anywhere else, unlike her most of the families in the village decided to leave either to the cities or to other villages seeking better living conditions for them and for their children and no one can really blame them for that.

Once there, we settled down, kissed my grandma who looks smaller every time we visit her and my aunties and mom started their, how should I call it, started their rituals, I went to another room lied on the floor and started thinking about what should I do in this long endless day, just looking at the ceiling made me think of all the fun things we used do in this house, when we were children and then negative thinking started about how when we grow up all the fun already ended, I heard a lot of people say that, but no I’ll never be one of those nostalgic people, I refuse to be one of those losers, the fun just started.
I took my camera and started taking photos of anything and everything one day all this would be lost like all the memories from the past, better document it, I started with the ceiling which is already a masterpiece did you ever sow ceilings like those:

I sneaked outside, and strolling in the empty streets it caught my eyes how beautiful the old doors of some abandoned houses were, I know that a lot of those houses are not abandoned but it seemed so cool to say so, sorry about that, anyway those are some of them:

While rereading what I wrote it seems like I complained too much about my aunties, they are not that bad, it’s just that we are different, like if we belong to two different worlds, we only have one small thing in common,  our love to amazigh jewelries.
I asked once my aunty zayna to make for me Tajbadt which is an amazigh necklace made out of 39i9 and jouher ( I don’t know how to translate those to English), it’s usually worn during celebrations with the whole set of silver amazigh jewelries and according to mom only old women wear it daily, I was so happy that my aunt zayna didn't forget about it and finally made one for me, I’ll wear it daily I have an old soul so I don’t care that only old women wear it daily.

 Thanks aunt zayna, you are the best.

Monday, August 22, 2016

Anywhere but here

You know that movie starting Natalie Portman and Susan Sarandom, about that teen girl who would do anything to just run away from her mom but for some mysterious reason she can’t, this is how I felt when my parents decided that we are going to spend two week at dad’s village, I wanted to just say no I won’t go, but I couldn’t it’s not like I hate going to that place it’s just that they have been controlling my every move since summer started, my plans what I think about isn’t that important they have bigger plans and they assume I should accept them and follow their steps, I kept calm all those days and I added another two weeks of shutting my mouth, I didn’t want to ruin their mood yet since soon things will change and I need energy for that.

So this is how I ended up coming where, against my will, and since I’m here better enjoy it. my parents village is located in the south of morocco between Tiznit and Sidi Ifni, we have our own house here, it has electricity but water we need to bring it from the outside, no television and I’m ok with it I’m not a fan of it anyway, instead we have a radio that only catches Spanish stations and the local amazigh station, good for me more time to read and write, outside we have a garden that looks nothing like a garden, dad takes care of it once a year so what should I expect. during the night it gets really dark it took me awhile to get used to it and I grow to really love it, if you look at the sky you would be amazed by how bright the stars shine. I have cousins who live nearby but we don’t have much in common to talk about, I bet they find me the most boring girl ever and it’s ok since the feelings are mutual, I spend my day between reading, helping in the house, going to the beach if dad feels like taking us there and taking photos.

This is where I spend most of my day

This Argan tree has a million year I guess even grandpa played under it.

It’s really beautiful in here, so calm and peaceful, but when you are young with all those ideas and plans in your mind and no one seems to care about them and keep blocking you, life can get a bit hard. Dad, mom  I love you so much and I’m so grateful about all the things you did and keep doing for me but it’s only those two weeks and I’m going to take control of my life and end this play so please enjoy your time like I do.

Tuesday, August 2, 2016

My Spanish progress + my current favorite spanish songs #6 :

Hi friends ; 

Learning a new language can get really hard, at some point you lose motivation to continue, and even if you force to continu you don’t feel any progress, and I kind of feel like that with me learning Spanish lately, it’s like a hit a wall but I’m trying be positive again and chase all the negativity, I have a lot of free time those days, so I’m going to consecrate some of it even if only an hour in my day to Spanish.

Currently I'm reading this book named "La Ciudad de las Bestias" by ISABEL ALLENDE, it's a YA novel which made me think I can handle reading it, but no it's a bit hard for me to understand what’s happening, I use the dictionary and it helps a lot, I’m also planning to do on this blog some Spanish tags even film videos of them, I already did one before and it was so much fun, it's just me answering some questions and they can be book related my favorite subject, I'm excited about the tags, and to make this plan work and more fun I’m now exclusively listening  to music in Spanish let’s cross fingers that I would stick to this plan and improve even a bit my level.

Talking about music, I love summer because during this period a lot of hits are in Spanish, and it’s not always easy for me to find music in Spanish that suits my taste, so those are five of my favorite songs that I really enjoy listening to lately:

#1 Carlos Vives, Shakira - La Bicicleta:

Lleva, llévame en tu bicicleta
Óyeme, Carlos, llévame en tu bicicleta
Quiero que recorramos juntos esa zona
Desde Santa Marta hasta La Arenosa

#2 Chino y Nacho - Andas En Mi Cabeza ft. Daddy Yankee: 

Andas en mi cabeza nena a todas horas
(No sé cómo explicarte)
El mundo me da vueltas, tú me descontrolas
(No paro de pensarte)
Por tí me la paso imaginando que
(Imaginando que)
Contigo me casé
(Oh Yeah)
Y por siempre te amé
(Love you girl, girl, girl)

#3 Romeo Santos - Yo También ft. Marc Anthony:

Quien eres tú
Para sentirte superior dueño de ella
A ti te quiso a mí me amo algo de veras
Como Colón yo navegue toda su piel

#4 Enrique Iglesias - DUELE EL CORAZON ft. Wisin:

Con él te duele el corazón
Y conmigo te duelen los pies
Con él te duele el corazón
Y conmigo te duelen los pies

And I saved the best for the last my Prince

#5 Prince Royce - La carretera:

¿Dónde estarás? ¿Dónde estarás?
¿Todavía piensas en mí?
¿Dónde estarás? ¿Dónde estarás?
Yo sigo pensando en ti