Sunday, January 18, 2015

Random thoughts.

15 days until the exams of the first semester, I have no motivation to study. all my life I have been studying hard, and what happened nothing I just made the worse choice of a university, and I can blame no one about it. I don’t know if I would be less depressed if I spent this year in Casablanca where I have friends, my friends I miss them so much.

Yesterday my sister asked me about my plans for next year, she doesn't know that now I’m lost, I can’t even think about the present, how could I think about the future? all my thoughts are negative, I can’t think about something positive, obviously I didn't tell her that, if I did she would be all why are pessimist, you shouldn't be like that, things are going to get better if you think positively, and I don’t feel like hearing this speech. so I told her what she wanted me to say, I seem to be doing this a lot lately, telling people what they want me to say, just trying my best to show that I’m thinking the right things, this way they will let me at peace.

Making new friends was always hard for me, I figured that a long time ago, that’s why all my friends are people I knew since primary and secondary school. talking to new people isn't the hard thing for me, maintaining the friendship is the hard part, my old friend do that for me they call me even if I don’t, they will push me to go out with them, they accept my character as I accept theirs. but now here where I don’t know a person, it’s just hard to maintain friendships that I don’t care about making, this problem is stressing me out. is this another type of social anxiety? Maybe.

Now all I’m doing is reading children books, and listening to Lana Del Rey songs, while I should be studying. I’m planning to change this, but not now maybe tomorrow!!! I should start studying, I need that piece of paper even if I don’t like to. it’s just a year I bore two years, adding another one won’t kill me right, maybe it will I don't know, I can’t be optimistic it’s just me those days.

Monday, January 12, 2015

book reviews: Sense and Sensibility and Attachments

My first review of this year is about the last books I read in 2014: Sense and sensibility by Jane Austen and Attachments by Rainbow Rowell.

Sense and Sensibility is the first book I read by  Jane Austen, this famous author that I was planning to read for since I watched the movie: "The Jane Austen book club". (I love this movie so much).
Back to the book, Sense and Sensibility is a romantic fiction book, that follows the life and loves of the Dashwood sisters: Elinor and Marianne. Elinor represents the sense in the book, while Marianne represents the sensibility.
Reading classics is always difficult for me, the only thing that helped me with this book was the dialogue, I wished there was more of it. 
On the whole, I was glad that I made it and finished reading this book. I'm planning to read another book by Jane Austen this year, I need to find out why people like and admire her writing so much.    

Now to Attachments by Rainbow Rowell.

Attachments is the third book I read by Rainbow Rowell, and again I wasn't disappointed, I liked this book as much as Fangirl and Eleanor and Park
So Attachments is a contemporary book, the story is set in the late 90s about this guy called Lincoln who fell in love with a women just by reading her e-mails and so he tries to confess his love to her. 
I enjoyed so much this book, the story was cute and funny, the only thing I didn't like was the ending, I felt it was so rushed just like the ending of  Fangirl

Those were my last books for 2014, I wish this year would be full of good books too.